It’s ironic that the one I’m about to do might just trade a minor instability for a major instability; and whatever the repercussions are, I really can’t blame anyone. All I can resort to praying from Allah SWT is that, if the past few happiest months of my life are my trek towards the devil (like multiple such engagements), then I seek refuge from all of it. But if they aren’t, then I beg Allah to help me sustain that joy because really, I’ve always had weak ropes to hold on to and I gave myself away to this one prospect, within bounds of all that’s platonic.
All I gather from this is that “platonic” doesn’t exist. Period.
Allah’s laws are PERFECT. We are twisted.
Make du’a that I get rightly guided, dear reader.